Aftermath...
So being an over achiever has always been my thing, specially in school. An a was never good enough if the grade was not above a 93 and and it was never worth graduating with out a 4.0. And then sophomore year last semester was when all went down to hell. I had too many exams and was too tired and I messed up on my first exam in my college career. After my exam, I talked to the professor explained my situation and based on my shiny record in the class, he was willing to give me a chance to improve my grade if I took the three exams that were being offered that summer. Guess what I did.... I didn't take not one of those exams. A four credit hour class and I couldn't get my act together to improve my grade...
Then junior year happened, end of semester got a B in one of my easiest classes because they thought I didn't submit my lab, which I did... I told the professor that I had and he told me as long as I can prove it I can get a grade change... from my million and one options of trying to improve that grade I didn't take one. I am here now, a year later an action yet to be taken. But the crown jewel of my epic messups is my project submittal for another class of that same semester. I had maybe two more hours of work left on that project and I didn't finish, told the professor and he was more than gracious letting me present the next semester. I would have been on my merry way with my sparkling A but winter break came and went but that project did not progress an inch from the way I left it at 5am that thursday morning.
The worst part of all of those is that I think it affects how I perform now. It has almost become a chronic thing to mess up in class... enter self-destruct mode the last week of school AKA finals. So this semester, I am determined not to let that happen. I am here sitting down trying to study and all I can think about is how I didn't fix all these things. But lefts face it all I am doing now is keeping myself from studying going forward.
And lets be real, even with all of this mess ups I still have a pretty awesome GPA that can even get better if I keep focused form now on and do a pretty good job in the semesters to follow, even without changing those grades. I messed up, boho big deal. Do I have a chance to change them, maybe but I, for sure, have the opportunity to get a 4.0 for this semester. Stop focusing on the past and move forward. I need to break the cycle and it starts today.
Before I forget, the reason I named this aftermath, tho not explained clearly in the story, is because: we might do something stupid or reckless now that have grave consequences but no mater what we have to decide how we want to go forward with our mistake and take immediate action. Weather its to change the outcome or to accept what happened and move on, we have to come to a DECISION. Otherwise we let our one mistake have a snowball effect on the rest of out endeavors each time having a more grave effect than before... it might even get to the point of being a chronic habit of self-destruction.
